Werifesteria is a Pagan art community. No matter what path you’re on or how long you’ve been on it, at some point you’ve felt the inspiration to create. Whether painting, weaving, drawing, or your personal grimoire. In the woods of Werifesteria we call pagan crafters and artists of all types to come explore how you express your practice through your art.
So leave your shoes on the path, you won’t need them here, and come wander the woods… for not all who wander are lost, and we are most certainly wanderers of the creative nature.
Welcome to Dark Waters. This is a Liminal Space. What does this mean? “A liminal space is the time between the 'what was' and the 'next.' It is a place of transition, waiting, and not knowing. Liminal space is where all transformation takes place” -inaliminalspace.org I always found myself floating across the spectrums of life. Not white, not black, not even gray, but all and none of those things and every color in between. I wanted to create a space to reflect that. Dark Waters is a place where you can float on top of the water and bathe in the moonlight, or submerge yourself and explore its depths. It is neither and both places at once. This community is open to any and all interested in or already exploring paths that cross traditional boundaries or don’t fit in with traditional practices. This includes but is not limited to: shadow work, dream work, otherkin, working with dark or death deities, heretical monotheism, crossing the veil, paranormal, self reflection and affecting inner change, behavioral psychology, and fringe topics.
This community is based on Discord, and went live earlier this month. I had the desire to create it for some time, but the idea only fully formed this November. Once it did it was only a matter of days until the server was ready to go live, though I waited in an attempt to correspond it with the one year anniversary of No Qualms About Crumbs.
Dark Waters is not just a community. It is a realization of where my journey has been leading me. It is my acceptance of that destination and the first step on the next journey in my life. I put a lot of myself into creating it and I will continue to work to help it grow and support the members who help build it by joining.
Your shadow self is made of everything you have repressed. Every traumatic memory and feeling of pain. Every fear, every perceived weakness, everything that you’ve convinced yourself is negative. For some it is the most terrifying part of our psyche. But it is not in and of itself negative. We see it that way because we are afraid to accept it. Accepting those parts of ourselves can give us great power over our conscious mind and our interactions with the world around us. Facing it may be one of the most powerful acts of healing we ever commit.
When we think of the shadow self we usually think of the examples I gave above. Suppressed memories of childhood abuse, abusive relationships, ptsd from traumatic events, and those personality traits that society deems undesirable. But in the process of exploring those parts of myself I learned of an entirely different aspect that, while related to all of those things, is a different beast unto itself.
That beast is Self Abuse. This is behavior, actions, or thoughts that you commit and have, which cause lasting harm to yourself.
The term “self abuse” may bring to mind acts of physical self harm, but just as often it is unseen. It is in the thoughts of insecurity. It is in the actions of those with low self esteem. It is in those codependent relationships we keep coming back to because we don’t know any other way to live.
While different life events lead people to committing self abuse, what is the same for everyone is that it is a cycle. And each time the cycle repeats itself it is fueled and grows. Before we realize it we are enabling the abusers who want to prey on us. It can be one of the most difficult forms of abuse to recover from, because first we have to recognize that it’s coming from within.
Like anything else, the first step is the hardest. And with each step we take the opposition grows because our abusers don’t want to let us go. We think, maybe it’s just a misunderstanding. This enables them. We say, maybes it was something I did. This enables them. We try to avoid doing anything to upset them. This enables them.
Why the hell do we do this?
Because they have managed to convince us, managed to make us convince ourselves, that we can’t live without them. That there is no other way. That this is what we deserve.
It is not. No one, absolutely no one deserves to live with these thought patterns. And yet, many of us do without realizing it.
When I first started to change my thought patterns, I saw immediate changes in the world around me. At first my abusers fought harder for control. But I fought back. I found myself desperately clinging to the person that was emerging from my shadow. And after some time my abusers began to distance themselves from me. The process tooks years, is still ongoing, but for the first time in my 28 years of life I am experiencing emotional freedom and I will never sacrifice that for someone else’s ego ever again.
Shadow work is hard. And once you start you can’t stop. But the rewards are worth every tear and pint of ice cream.
I embrace my Shadow in both self-reflection and spirituality. For me the two are mutually inclusive.We cannot progress spiritually without first understanding who we are and how we need to grow.